i will be here!

i think i may be suffering from some unknown sickess called "sleep evasion syndrome". becos i dun exactly know why i am blogging here becos i m really VERY tired! well..it's normal becos it happens almost every night except when i fall asleep accidentally somewhere, i.e, the sofa, the floor, anywhere.

No, it is not insomnia, I m truely tired and I can fall asleep within 30sec if i just get to close my eyes...but i just cant bear to go to sleep!! altho i m practically doing nothing substantial being awake. and every morning when i pull myself out of bed, I am sure to hate myself for staying awake to do nothing the night before! but well...the cycle still repeats itself night after night! someone!!! convince me to sleep early plss!!!!

anw, i think i kind of noe what my rationale is: i jus wana have some time to spend with myself, to feel like i still have my own space to do my own stuff (read: do nothing)...haha.
yea..that is my rationale.

today's kind of gloomy..becos some of my frens are not having a good time and becos the death toll is accelerating.

well, i guess, the saying "家家有本难念的经" is indeed true.

everyone do brace up and let's just look forward to a better 2005 ahead!!
You all still have me, I am still here! if it helps! :)