i will be here!

i think i may be suffering from some unknown sickess called "sleep evasion syndrome". becos i dun exactly know why i am blogging here becos i m really VERY tired! well..it's normal becos it happens almost every night except when i fall asleep accidentally somewhere, i.e, the sofa, the floor, anywhere.

No, it is not insomnia, I m truely tired and I can fall asleep within 30sec if i just get to close my eyes...but i just cant bear to go to sleep!! altho i m practically doing nothing substantial being awake. and every morning when i pull myself out of bed, I am sure to hate myself for staying awake to do nothing the night before! but well...the cycle still repeats itself night after night! someone!!! convince me to sleep early plss!!!!

anw, i think i kind of noe what my rationale is: i jus wana have some time to spend with myself, to feel like i still have my own space to do my own stuff (read: do nothing)...haha.
yea..that is my rationale.

today's kind of gloomy..becos some of my frens are not having a good time and becos the death toll is accelerating.

well, i guess, the saying "家家有本难念的经" is indeed true.

everyone do brace up and let's just look forward to a better 2005 ahead!!
You all still have me, I am still here! if it helps! :)

惜福吧! 大家!!

Just what does it takes for one to be happy and contented?

to have someone you love to reciprocate your love?
to have an ideal job with a more than ideal pay?
to go to taiwan for a mayday concert as dreamed?
or.... just to have youself and your loved ones to be alive and safe and sound?

the last one, i am sure, without any doubts or hesitation.

but still, one to two months later, after the world has moved on from the tsunami tragedy, when we no longer see devastating footages of homeless people mourning for their loved ones, and corpses lying around and being hastily buried, will we still remember how fortunate we are? will we still be contented just by being alive and breathing? sadly... no, inclusive of myself.

becos we are humans, and becos humans are weak in the face of striving for daily needs to be loved, to attain material needs and social status, so much so that we sometimes forget to stop to look at what we already have.

A healthy body, our five senses, all 4 limbs.
Family, friends.
A home to shelter us from rain and shine, a land safe from terrorists, war and natural disasters (at least for now).

Aren't the above all worth rejoicing over? Like how the blind man who finally regained his sight after 10 years in the dark? Like how the fillial son at the funeral may say "i am willing to give up all i have in exchange for my mum/dad's life". Like how people in Aceh may wish to be born in Spore in their next life.

So, dear ones, let's all try and remember to count our blessings from time to time from now on, and bear in mind that we are still the lucky ones despite having to face infinite rubbish in life!

It's easier to be happy and to kan kai on things like that! so...惜福吧! 大家!!

I LOVE WHITE GADGETS

People…just FYI….
There are white digicams around, and so are there white hps and white MD players. So in case u are one of those who think the above only come in silver colour, or thinks only I-POD comes in white, pls correct yourself!

Since yesterday I went from store to store asking for a white digicam and all I got was the “小妹..你是來鬧場的吧” look! Hey…uncles! U all should feel glad that I haven even opened my mouth for a PINK one ok!

Uncles started pushing to me the same Olympus model which they insisted was white…but really..it was matt silver! And uncles started to 混 or rather, demonstrate what they tot were their “sales tactics” by telling me some assumptions like “白色容易變黃”, or “白色一下子就刮到了” or “沒有人出白色的啦”!!! uncles!!! U all never see before dosen mean dun have ok…and I dun even wana comment about all yr poor pdt knowledge!!! and my hp and MD are still as white as Day 1!!!

And I dun understand why all the digicams on the rack are silver!!! Who said digicams are to be silver! And the clichéd people!!! How come you all just 默默地 buy silver digicams all these years just becos the whole rack of digicams are silver?!?! Never tot about getting a non-silver one huh???? Never tot about asking if they come in non-silver colours huh???

Anw, finally found 2 white ones, one frm SONY, 5megapix and the one I picked: CASIO, 3.2megapix. 5megapix to take idols and misc too over le la…lol~~ and 5megapix one too stressful to bring out for someone who had lost 3 hps over the years!! But anyway…I LOVE it absolutely!! And check out how it matches my hp and MD!!! To my hp: u 振作一點 plss!! I still cant find another white one that I like to replace you, and I cant afford a new one now!!!

and..this new lucky 小白 will be gg to Taipei and Final Home with me!! (ph…I gg from 6-10 Jan..yea!)

 

My white gadgets!!! Jin jia sui ba!!!

Oh yea, like all sponsored events, must never forget to mention and give thanks to the proud sponsors!! to u know who u are, and u all know who he is, THANK YOU for the Christmas gift and the new hp acccessory! people....frm now on, u all can call him "好运蔡" becos the cute melody chain was frm a capsule machine...1/6 chance...and he actually managed to twist it out for me!!!
谢了! 好运蔡!

i was on CNA!!!

Life is full of surprises, how true!
Like how I caught myself 活生生地 appear on Channel News Asia at Gallery Hotel on Christmas Day!

Yea...ask me what I was doing at Gallery Hotel. I checked in with my bf for a retreat. And in case anyone is starting to do wolf whistles, to quote xq: “我做人傥荡荡”, nothing to hide about checking into a hotel! LOL~ and for those who don’t know what/where is gallery hotel, NO!!! it is not another hotel 81!!! It is so called a “H.I.P” Hotel. “HIP” stands for: highly individualized property. And secretly realized they have one for one drinks at their bar daily from 5-9pm!!

And yea, just right after we settled down, caught a programme on CNA featuring my company…and just when I was busy laughing at how 虛榮 one of my bosses was becos she kept appearing here and there in the backgrd…I saw myself appear for like…3 secs!!!

And that was like taken 1 yr ago without me knowing!!! The top I was wearing then already been forsaken long ago!! I was caught talking to an ang moh customer, looking v helpful and committed!! Phew!!! LOL~~ and check out my poor service attitude on X’mas eve on the previous entry!

不知道在瞎 high 個捨麼, but just feel v 虛榮 about that miserable 3sec of exposure on national TV on Christmas Day becos TV time should b very expensive on this day!! Wahaha~~~

Ok…夠了! I can hear u all shouting!

And btw, 周星馳’s “功夫” was bad!!!!!

親愛的大家!!! 聖誕節快樂!!

Well…this is it. Christmas Day is here! And I duno if I should say “finally” or “sadly”. Ya, Christmas is supposed to be a happy occasion where everyone should be feeling very blessed and loved.

But now that it’s here…I suddenly feel a slight sense of gloominess because it is going to be over in the next 20 hours. And so, I have realized, I am probably not in love with “Christmas”, but rather, the counting down period to the 25th Dec, or so called “the festive season”!

I love walking home in the evening breeze that smells of “year-end” 俗稱"年底的味道", I love the 莫名的 anticipation and the excitement in the air, and I love to be hearing Christmas songs wherever I go (excluding the techno versions my dad plays at home…lol). Of cos I still hate the crowd!

And hence, conclusion is, 24th Nov – 24th Dec…that then is MY X’MAS!!

Today has been a very long day, starting from 630am when I woked up from cramps.

Work was a frenzy of figuring out how to wrap whatever was thrown to me, which came in every possible shapes and sizes, under the watchful eyes of the last minute shoppers, with my backache and cramps, and while losing blood intensively. Oh yea, and also about how not to roll my eyeballs but give an appreciative smile plus a “merry x’mas” to those who so rightfully asked for unlimited gift wrappers, boxes, cards, ribbons and paper bags after shoving to you their receipt of 30 odd dollars. As such, my schoolday’s dream of being a “gift wrapper” was also officially 宣告破滅 w.e.f. today!

LOL~ and my colleague actually kena a luggage (heng not me!)…and NO!! you din read wrongly, it was A LUGGAGE!!! which she had to stick like, maybe 8pcs of big wrappers tgt to wrap! Haha…luggages should be banned as a gift la…and today I constantly 犯了 gift wrapping 的大忌 so many times!!! forgot to remove price tags!! CMI!! (cannot make it) Wahaha…customers gota remind me constantly! lol…just too bad for you all la….cos today it was me and aunty at your service. If it’s me alone, you all would have easily got more gift wrappers, boxes, cards, ribbons and paper bags than what you asked for with a sweet sn smile, I promise! LOL~~

Luckily the day was redeemed by the little tsj party/feast after work. We had fried chicken, a tough grilled chicken (tryg to pass off as turkey), pizza, cream puffs, almond jelly, fried hokkien mee (compliments from my mum!), chocolates, sushi, and the 不可缺少的 log cake!

And yea, after-dinner activities included lying around in my room and switching from one SCV channel to another! Lol~ tsj style party. And yea, you may call us the losers, because we indeed had fun! and i guess we all appreciated the party a lot becos even at 5pm today, it felt like tsj was on the verge of disbanding on a Christmas eve!! LOL~

anw it was 3 silly gers getting themselves too serious about their friendship i guess, which is actually such a happy thing tho at times too much to take for a 窩囊 sn sandwiched btwn the taurians! lol~

So….this was my Christmas eve…how about u all???

it's christmas eve!

i have not much impression of how i passed today except memories of pouring out loads and loads of mango clothings, tearing off the price tags from them, and dumping them into the plastic bags. and it went on and on like that from 9am to 7.30pm, with some short break intervals in between.

i bet the spgs there today bot enough spaghetti straps and halters and off-shoulders and mini handbags to last them for their next 6 months clubbing sessions until the next sale comes along. and the MNCs managers, u all must have stocked up enough plain jackets (with shoulder pads) and lycra tops and black bottoms for your next 10 conferences, and the cliches (which also includes the above 2 catergories), i am sure you all had manged to collect the mango basic tees and racer backs in all available colours, provided you all were able to find your sizes from the piles on the floor! Congrats to all!!

and u all are grabbing the winter wear for what?? to wear for your movies outings or your lectures ah?? or to the ice skating ring?
and sporeans gers!! u all are buying far TOO MUCH spaghetti straps le!!!!!

anyway, it's already a very tiring day and an uninvited guest whom we call "the aunty" had to come for a visit today! excellent timing, as usual!

oh yea, and check out my new template...the whole place looks so clean now!! i like it!! haha..

and to all my dear frens, let's all love each other ok! sometimes life gets us down and sometimes we are just too lazy/busy to meet up, but lets still love each other...ok!!!

esp for now...becos its christmas!!! lol~~~~

merry christmas to all again!!!!!

oh...and gimme a magic wand and i will make the crowd on orchard road find themselves back at home at the wave of my wand!

why, oh why??

I know some of you must be rather sick of this, but everytime I m made to work on wkends, I just have to say it! After a long 19 months, I still have not learnt how to work on weekends! I have accepted it, ya, but accepting and doing it well are 2 separate issues u see!!!

I can NEVER be punctual for work on wkends, and having to pull myself away from the TV, walking to the station under the blazing sun, my ever-recurring headaches, my sleepiness and the squeezing with the “do not have to work on wkend crowd” on the train will forever add on to my already saturated agony!!

No…I m not a “nua-kia”…lol…and I m not against working on weekends, but only when necessary and productive!!! look…I find it so absurd that we are sup to “observe” customers on Sundays, as if we keep our eyes closed on wkdays, and tell me!! where are the customers, y dun I even see them, not to say observe!! and we are sup to "help out" when the staff themselves are free enough to chat! And did I mention that there is no air-con supply in the office even if I want to hide to do my reports?!?!

And Saturdays…fyi, all working sat are late shifts, as in 145pm – 930pm, and if u happen to be the loser aka sway-kia assigned to do accts duty (like..what has accts got to do w me!!!), be prepared to leave at 1015 or later! so, those who have to work half days on Saturdays, think abt me and cheer up! At least makes my working on sat nights a little more worthy!

And you know what! We are sometimes thrown with “the look” or will be “suaned” for wearing semi casual, eg. Jeans, on weekends…..my dear bosses…it is your biz if u wana wear long sleeve shirts and ties to the office on a Sunday , but dun expect me to play along just to make u all look normal…cos u all are indeed NOT!

AHHH!! y make me work (hang around) on weekends?!?!

Ok…so the above are grouses (for nw) from a sn made to work on a saturday. Pls dun expect me to stop here, tho I will try not to repeat the same pts nxt time! Lol~~~

People reading this…the sale I dread most is coming soon…28th Dec… pls let me know if anyone wants any entry passes. Only for 1st tier of friends...kcyf, do take note! LoL

And Christmas is like…next Saturday!! will be over soon before I have enjoyed it enough. Love the weather and the songs tho hate the crowd…
Anw…to all….enjoy Christmas quick before it is gone!!!

当我们混在一起

YES!!! I m going!!! have paid for it...air tix on hand!!! suddenly it feels real!! we are going to 混在一起 with 五月天 on the night of 8 jan 2005!

当~我们混在一起...在一起...在一起...
当~我们混在一起...真快乐无比.....
*sing this out loud with me!!*

台北市立体育馆 layout!!!
we will be at the orange zone!!

Down with reality!

Dreams vs. Reality (vs $$)
cliche like mad..ya i noe, but isn't this always the case!

At times we realize that we have misinterpreted our dreams all along, they din turn out to be as ideal as what we expected. sometimes they are really as ideal as what we expected, but sadly there is just no way to make a living out of it. if that is the case, will you still stand strong or waver? i don't know!

one close fren left her once used to be dream job today, of cos she dun owe anyone any explanation and i dun think anyone has the right to demand any explanation from her, becos she is the only person who has gone through it all.

but i think i can understand, really.

how many lucky ones out there can have the privilege to be doing what they enjoy for a living? anyone??.....................................................
*no response*

well well...but still, little dreams are still within reach, though $$ is still a pre-requisite. I m gg to TW for MD concert!!!! has been my little dream since 19yrs old! at 23..5 years later....it is finally coming true!

conclusion??
dreams still come true! down w reality!!!

你的同鄉人

"從來我覺得我來到這個世界上就是一個異鄉人, 一個人在漫長的巴士路途上流浪着; 從來我躲閃着人類的眼光; 多麼希望在人情世故裡毫無牽掛的癮身; 從來我一直在找一個董我的人, 也許他也來自陌生而遙遠的異鄉."
陳信宏

你也曾經有過這樣的感覺嗎?
那你又找到你的同鄉人了嗎?

MY EVIL TWIN!?! *freaky*

OMG! i was just reading a fren's blog and suddenly saw this entry from her:

"Do you believe that in the whole wide world, that is someone who happens to be your exact match? I read it years ago in a magazine that there are some studies which proves that.

GUESS WHAT! I have found my best friend's EVIL TWIN!!!DO NOT FREAK OUT, those who know her.. And to c, yes yes yes she is soo YOU!! AND she likes Mayday too!! so so so so so scary!! For the moment I thought that it might be your other blog"

YES! YES! YES! and her "best fren" is referring to me!! me!!
and check out these 2 links!!!
they belong to "the evil twin"

(links have been removed, read "comments")

.........so it seems she is also called "cw" huh...BU HUI BA!!! *cold sweat*

and lol!!! i actually found this photo frm her gallery!!! my evil twin captured her evil twin!!!
????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????
会不会太炫了!!!!!!!!


it's me!!

huh..i m.......speechless...
hey ph!! dun also tell me she look like me pls...or she also used to like jeff chang, then daniel chan den nic tse...i will FREAK OUT!!! lol

show her to me quick!!!!!

mummy!!! what's going on!!!

这个 OL 会不会太 OVER 了!!

it suddenly striked me today that I am, but an OL...
becos an OL's represntation to me is "boredom, repitition and helplessness (with the above two)"...tt is y i m bothered more or less...

every morning i make sure my dark eye rings are well concealed and my mascara dun smudge
every morning i spend a lifetime trying to mix and match my limited (and boring) wardrobe
every morning i contemplate which MD to slot into my player on the train, and yet usually dun stay awake past the 3rd song...
every morning i ponder upon whether i should go through the underpass or the traffic lights so i won't run into colleagues...

and everyday my colleagues and I ask each other the same qn "where to eat"
and everyday my bosses ask me the same qn "how's your sales"
and everyday my suppliers ask me the same qn "any promotion for me"

and its just one promotion after another, one newsletter briefing after another, one merchandising meeting after another, one Private sale after another, and one cock-up (note:usually not by me!) after another....i mean what's new?

so, everyday i look forward to 6pm
so, everyday i look forward to the next off day
and so, everyday i look forward to some non-everyday happening to happen, but it never happens!!!

and that is why i love to buy my melody,
and that is why i go for k-lunches,
and that is why i take days off for idol activities,
and that is why i am now contemplating to go TW just for a Final Home concert
and that is also why i do all the other things that people think are seemingly too OVER le!

becos I am just an OL.