The year of the rooster...and i tot this was supposed to be MY year...

But why do I feel shadowed by dark clouds instead? and this is like...only the 4th day into the new year!! ok, face it, all roosters out there, this is not going to be a smooth year ahead, so pls be prepared.

I just hope my visit to the temple today will be of help because for once, I truely do feel I need external strength. For once, my optimism dosen seem to be able to put into practice. For once, things do not feel like they will just work out fine eventually. I am scared...

I had resoluted to start this year afresh, and recharged. But now, I am just brooding over too many things...and I am having too many headaches.

Meanwhile, i need to be stronger, braver, more independent and learn not to take things for granted...

and while doing trying to do so, I just hope that the dark clouds above will not rain on me.