BYE LE ~

OK…we WENT!
Been there, seen them, done it!
And now I am losing sleep at 4am in the morning…5 and a half hours left to get out of my world or be cruelly slotted back into reality again. I am sure it will be the latter, because I want to stay and indulge in my world for as long as I can!

It was the very detached xin and the highly responsive and obliging monster (both as usual), that we saw! Had yi dui interaction with monster (like…again!) like taking pics with him from the bus window, he requesting to see the pic, and he even pin pointed at ash and I and mouthed “bao zhong” to us!! And only us!!!!! Ok…we will for your sake..wahaha! and forgot to mention after he took pics with us, he and xin were laughing over something which we will never know what, but told ourselves sould be smthg like “hey, the sweaty gers in action again!” haha…but dun care!


KAN WO!

monster and us!!!

And I managed to get like…15 sec of ah xin’s attention (excluding the occasional beows that he threw us) with a message I wrote to him on construction paper (content not to be disclosed, only for people in the know)! Ahh! At least la!

And ya, ask me why I had construction paper with me! becos before that we were making goody bags with choc and jelly etc for them!! 2 mad gers getting themselves stressed and busy at BK at 11pm/12am!! Mad mad mad mad!! But I tot the end products were rather sweet tho…lol..like anyone will care rite! Fine! Anw, the goodies were chucked onto some trolley and pushed away with their bulky luggage by some extra technician whom we cant remember his name thro-out!! But we did ask monster to look out for them btw, wonder if he got us! Pray the goodies dun end up into stomach of some etc etc!!! only meant for greedy ah xin actually, but felt obligated to make for the rest!


the goody bags!

and after they alighted from the bus to check in, lucky ash managed to get 60% of their signatures, including xin! So lucky! And giam sisters da jie got qin mi zhao with stone and monster and qin mi conversation with ah xin!! AHHHH!!!! Anw situation too messy again to recall much significant incidents except standing around ah xin feels so secure! And I think its time to get a camera phone!

Anw…feeling low now, aka the”qu zhong ren san” and “ren qu lou kong” feel, and since when my ah xin became so aloof! He looked lost in some world of his own all the while! Huh…that means, I am in the cao min world to him aka my colleagues to me!! so saddening!! Where is my ah xin 4 yrs ago who walked over to say “dan huo’er jian to me”!!! give him back to me!!! wahaha..i miss him!

錯錯錯錯 錯錯錯錯
我不接受 這樣的 全劇終.....

How to go to work tomorrow morning?!?!


bye lohh!

to go or not to go.....

my calves are so cramped from yest I cant even walk and climb the stairs properly!! And I am missing him a lot now! We call this the PMS (Post MD Syndrome..wahaha). Last time I had a so called workout was the traumatizing Amore experience. I think I pamper my fat body too much le, haha…ever since its apparent resistance that time, I never try to make it do any strenuous exercise anymore, until last night!!!

Was flung back to reality this morning when I was forced to pull out my earphones when I stepped into the office! Hai…can I just be left alone here in my world, I am totally unprepared to come back to face the cao mins and their world. So I just bai ge chou lian and to anyone who came near, told them I have a bad throat so dun wish to speak much..wahaha…but check out how ongoingly loud and clear I was at the ahxin discussion during lunch!

Now contemplating if I should send them off tonight, but 1am, hbhtcl!! And how to explain to my mum!?!? And what if they just rush off and we dun get any interaction, then midnight surcharge plus going against my mum plus being labeled as irrational plus sacrificial of sleep jiu tai unjustifiable le ba! hey…but! What if next day hear exciting stories about fans and them at airport, then I will go long pia for sure! How how how?!?!?! AHHHHH!!!!!

THE LONG AWAITED GIG!!!

Gosh! I m at a lost for words…how do I describe today so that 10 yrs later if I am to read this again, I can exactly remember how my 22 Nov 2004 was spent!

All the excitement and anticipation already started yesterday night to be precise, I couldn’t sleep!!! And even after falling asleep, all night long was dreaming about MD and today! Despite all the preparations last night, still was late! Ahh! Gotta make myself look presentable enuf I guess…sn mentality zuo sui again!! think too much again!!!

Luckily I was allowed into the queue despite reaching there at close to 1pm, credit given to ash and her network..wahaha!!! But hey…listen to what I mean by being allowed into the queue…it is like…the 7th/8th in the q man!!!! cos ash frens were first in the q!! they took the first train there!! Huh…..hbht xin fu le!!!!

Kept ourselves busy with some cheap thrill stuff like taking photos with the stage, preparing our gifts and hala-ing with MD fans jia yi bing ding!! But din stoop that low to “flirt” with technicians though, wahaha. abt 4plus we were allowed into the rock zone, and realized we were at the most strategic position! Like..the centre of the stage, first row?!?!?!? Hbht xin fu le!!!!!! So we cheap thrilled ourselves again for the next 1-2hrs…like eating ji pa, singing along (go ahead….despise me!!) and taking photos with the stage (like…AGAIN!!) and hala-ing (AGAIN!!) wahahaha…. MD…MD…MD!!!!!


me and the stage!

the "rock zone" (yao gun qu)

Ok…shall skip past the arrival of the host and MD etc etc...go straight to the concert!

The concert!!!!!….the jiu wei le de MD live performance since tian kong zhi cheng in oct/nov 2003 (shit! I forgot..ashamed!), or to be more precise, live performanc by the streets was since H2O zone in Oct 2000!!! Huh….2000…I cant believe I m typing 2000!!!! So long ago le!!!! Maybe all I can say is “WO TAI TAI TAI QI DAI LE!!!"

Ahhhh!! Ah xin appeared in his “obsession” tee looking so slim and ke ai, and so clean and fresh like he jus came out from the bath!! Fill like smelling him!! Good enough to be eaten!! lol...must look harder at the fresh him becos I know it wont last past the 1st song…true enuf! Wahaha


before!!

after!!!

Anw, I m only gg to talk about xin and monster cos the rest really dun rem le, and din make effort to rem also. Wahaha.

No nid to describe how high I was and how breathtaking the performance wAS cos only for people in the know, and people who are still not, no nid becos u all will never know, and also really beyond words!!!

“Wen rou” was soooooo wen rou with his OS. And “ting bu dao” sooo zhen han with the fan’s singing and his “wu yue tian ting dao le”. Audiences (2 to be exact, wahaha) at the back fang hua that only saw ash and my head going up down during this song and one even claimed heard my voice among the fans’ singing!! Haha….kua zhang! But so proud!! And “xiao hu shi” so cheeky with his comical little crab dance, and “jue jiang” so jue jiang with his determind and ren zhen de yan shen! and “sun wukong” and “ga cia” and “zhong jie gu dan” so high fan tian!! And “gong lang” soooo nostalgic. And “le se che” so funny with ash and ant pointing at each other and moster um-chio-ing at them!!

only regret was I din learn “xiao hu shi” beforehand! Big mistake on my part! Felt like a student flipping over the exam papers and realizing I had wrongly left out one major topic to study! Regrets regrets regrets! Cant sing along! Ah xin’s gona realize and have bad impression of me! think too much! Wahaha. And realize I tai unfit le! Worn out after a few songs, and had to rest on railings from time to time! At one point of time even had to squat down cos felt like vomiting! Huh..imagine vomit in front of ah xin…will be laughing stock, yong bu fan shen, da ru leng gong! maybe they may really rem me for a very long time…for the wrong reason! Ah! think too much…again!!! wahaha


HBHTHL!!

sadly, din manage to catch much of xin’s attention cos he kept looking far! Never gave us, 3 sweaty gers at the front row any attention despite our blaring screams and popping heads!! Only got occasional boews!! Maybe we were just too sweaty?? Huh…no matter how presentable I made myself look when I left the house, still can never be sweatproof! Lei diao…..

I have many reservations to continue writing about monster next cos it may all seem like some hallucination from a mad/desperate for attention fan who din manage to get enuf attention from her no.1 prey, so succumb to trying for the next best (and easy) one. But….suan le, I am telling the truth anw. whenever we so engrossed with xin, will unanimously realize monster looking left out beside him..haha…so cute, and have to pretend give him attention, like shout his name and take pics of him, and he will really look gleeful after that! Wahaha…very xu rong for our attention!! And posed for ant’s camera like…twice! And after a solo guitar performance, I did a clap for him to see and he nodded earnestly to me in acknowledgement!! Infinite eye contact and emotional connection!!! But still…y not xin!?!? Wahaha…

dj..this is for you!!!

Next up was the autograph session, which i will anytime rather do without becos the concert really feels far too short le!!

Anw, call me the wristband fan!! I gave him the customized poker cards and a blue white stripped puma wristband (that he wore throughout and until after the auto-session!!)*haughty* haha….but wana confess that both gifts were other people’s gifts to me..jie hua xian fo. But no choice la!! Last minute cannot find anything, gota grub from home!! sorry to BAC and ADC that I gave your gifts away! But I guess u all shd feel happy they are with some superstar now instead of loserly me! wahaha, and that they actually came into such great use for me! ahh…I am getting far too long winded…when is this entry going to end!

Anw, he use both hands to shake my hands, and looked up so sincerely, as usual, and took over the poker with both hands, looking very grateful! Ahhh…but he looked much more impressed with giam sisters hand-made smthg…huh….v xia sway….shouldn’t have let them go before me!! Back to me..next I took out the wristband and posed to wana wear for him, he gave me his v bai left hand..i paused..refused to wear on left hand cos already got bracelet…he understood, gave me his also v bai right hand…and I slipped it on for him!!! I touched his v bai right hand!!! This is a repeated trick btw..used on wmjdxm b4…wahaha… and take note we couldn’t even wear the band for 1 min cos elastic too tight and palm will go numb..but he wore it for like 1hr plus!!! And his wrist surely bigger than us!!! Okok…maybe he jus too busy to take off..but dun care, jus take it that he likes it very much cos frm me! Wahaha


focus his right wrist!

it's still there!

Nxt down is masa…skip! And then xu rong de monster…say “xin ku le” to me, as usual, and I jus told him I almost fainted! Trying to feign pitiful dunno for what also la..haha…just wana make tok ba, then ask him if they had dinner (trying to find out abt ah xin actually) and I was just shoved towards stone who replied me a “hai mei you”!!!!!!!!!!!! HEY!!! Not asking you ba….tsk..lei diao! guan you..i forgot also, but intended to praise his looking good rebonded hair, but forgot!! Too overwhelmed by xin le!! But must say that they all v nice la..haha..tho insignificant to me….

That’s about all ba…one tiring but very sweet day, filled with obsession and sweat!!
The best belated 23rd birthday present for me………

hope i can sleep tonight!

Huh…today is my birthday? How come it dosen feel like it at all!!! If not for all the wishes, I am sure I will not remember…becos it jus dosen feel like it at all!!! Or maybe I am jus too numb to birthdays le..after 22 times of it!! Huh….so fast?!?!

Anw I woke up to a po tian huang plus li shi xing de bad headache and a sore throat carried forward from yest. How to feel like a birthday ger to start with…you tell me! ahh!
Gotta cancel some preplanned celebrations even!Bad mood!!

Lucky still have MD on TV and a good dinner and choc truffle cake to end it off. If not, what do I use to remember my 23rd birthday?? years later…it will be like ______________________ BLANK!!! Rather sad ba….and hey dear!! Thanks for the cake (and present)!!!

Just finish packing my bao bao and deciding what to wear for tomorrow...so much barang to bring…2 umbrellas, towel, CD, markers, water, cap, wristbands, gifts, camera…..blah blah… Btw, LMGs (Last Minute Gers) dun pack their bags and decide what to wear in advance, but I HAVE to this time cos I may have to scurry off at 8am tmr morning! No delays allowed!!

Ahhh!! I m soooo excited about tomorrow! If only dj can come along!

call me the loser or the winner!!

I feel like a loser now having to spend the last night of being 22yr old in this office all alone, hiding in a corner table eating my yakitori rice with all the sauce dried up, and trying to keep myself busy by reading every article on Today dated a few days back! what the heck am i doing here! Waiting to collect back all the cash counters float at 945pm (what has this got to do with me in the first place!!), roaming around on the sales floor to kill time and listening to a mad woman repaet her stories to me at least 3 times per story. Pathetic me!

Oh!! Finally I see him again today at the airport!! This time so thin that I almost had a fight with the fren whom I went with over whether that was him anot…that xiao shou de bei ying in a wollen hat/cap (I dunno what is that called!!) and an oversized red big pullover! Haha…ok, maybe must clarify that he is not really THAT thin, jus comparatively thinner than last time…but thin enuf for all my past love (that went into hiding for a while when he was fat) to gush back into me…instantaneously!!! pls forgive me…ah xin!!! Wahaha…wor yi zhi dou zai ah!!!!

It was a mad one...apparently someone gave wrong info and we had to stampede from T2 to T1, without knowing what’s happening, just follow the crowd, you won’t go too wrong ba, and I bet it was a record breaking number of passengers (and noise level)on the skytram that day! It was like…bao man!!! The tourists around must have been impressed (or startled) by Singapore’s bustling airport scene…LOL! But heck care! cheong cheong cheong!!!

T2 was like....what man! Those receiving their frens and relatives more shi li pang da and excited than us, the fans!! Gou le! Crazy ah!! gotta fight with them for a space in front, but what were they so excited about…i dun understand! Ask them all shan kai!!!! Siam!!! Bie re wor!!!

Ok…finally they (or rather, HE, becos MD equates to jus HIM and HIM alone!!! wahaha) are out, after much discussion with the ah nei security (wonder what was their mode of communication). and everything after that was just too messy for me to remember clearly…

anw, main point is, next thing we knew, ash and I were behind him, all the way!! Literally behind, so close ash could even stepped on his shoe accidentally! Wahaha…and throughout the journey ash and I were poking at his bag, and ash even poked his back, like we were testing whether the pan was hot anot!! Wahaha..tho awfully tempting, but we love him too much to want to take the risk of irritating him by touching him too hard or clutching his waist or pulling the zipper of his bag down whatsoever…though it was soooo easy and reachable! And feel so secure just by walking behind him! haha

AHH! But nvm….zhong dian is: we were the women behind him and we were the only 2 who were closest to him for the longest time that day! Enuf for us to an shuang (and ming shuang) for a very long time!!

A good start is half the battle won!! I am looking forward to Monday!!!!

almost time to get ready to collect the floats!

waiting for you!

It really dosen pay to be a perfectionist at work...really...i will only tire myself to death in exchange for that maybe 15 min of satisfaction...or less. Promoters and customers mess up my display so much faster than me doing it up. And I bend up and down, walk in and out, here and there, and no matter how many times I tell them NOT to change my display or which sign to put where, or which color comes before which, they will NEVER get it!!! They never ever!!! They never listen, they never learn, they never remember, or rather...they dun care, to put it in the simplest form!! I wish I can scream at them like a mad woman...but I cant, because I have to maintain my image as the "nice buyer"..yea..that is how fake I am...wahaha...i call this low class PR, cheap politics…ba le la….haha

Anyway...I am really in no working mood today...and now just waiting for lunch and after lunch just waiting for knock off...I have a headache, a backache, kneeache and more, just not feeling well from top to toe today!

Tmr I am going to meet the one who will always have a very special place in my heart! Wahaha...jiu wei le! Must aim for eye and physical and emotional contact (yan shen de jiao liu + rou ti yu xin ling de jie chu)!! LOL

Lunchtime!!!!

our neighbour

You know, sometimes we zuo ren…really cannot keep cursing and swearing at things/people we hate, because we should not forget there is something called karma.

Like how wo zhe yi bei zi de hen is for Chinamen and M’sians, and how I ended up to only have 2 bfs (one is unofficial la), and they happen to cover these particular 2 countries!! This is what I call huo shen shen de bao ying…

and today I went to m’sia again!! breaking my promise about the last trip being the first and the last.

Anw, it was a mad day, like wake up at 650AM!!! and suddenly someone knocks the door at 7am to tell me the car already waiting downstairs..hello!! sn zai sui bian also need basic grooming ba! and at 7am, I still haven got to use the toilet cos my bf still inside!

And m’sia is zhen yang ah!!! all roads and buildings forever in the midst of construction huh!?! And 50% of my traveling partners are all above 50yrs and dan tian chao you li and million times more energetic than me…can tok nonstop the whole journey at top of their voice. Na jiu suan le…but contents all abt inspirations for 4D numbers, ah hao and huang na case, dongfang billy, huang wenyong and ling xiao!! Ah!! what was I doing on the car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok…my main motive to m’sia was for the cheap massage and spa, and dun ask me why I went with the 50 yrs old community. Everything went ok until the Jacuzzi part, which I will say, is traumatizing. just imagine 2 aunties bearing themselves in front of you, and na jiu suan le, really, but they have to thrust themselves from left to right of the tub to get their milk tea and their biscuits…ahh!!! And they were so unstable threading thru the water that I had to stick my back as close to the tub as possible in case their bare bodies should come close and bump into me! And pls…if you think I was naked too..i wasn’t…I was wearing a sarong!!!! And this brings us to the point of why couldn’t they also wear sarongs like me!! and anyone cares to tell me where was I expected to place my eyes…I mean, I cant close them and pretend to be so relaxed cos I was NOT and I had to keep a close lookout that they dun come too close!! I didn’t know a jacuzzi session can turn out to be so tensed….

Reached home at abt 7plus….cant imagine I spent 12hrs there!!! 12hrs!! half a day!! 1/14 of a wk! and throughout this 12hrs, I got on and off the MPV like…a million times, mainly for visiting….it felt like CNY except those “relatives” I visited were even more mo shen…

MALAYSIA!!!