to: me

late, but it's perfectly okay!

thank you me, for the gift
you're most welcome, me!
so long you are happy (:

to: tsj / mdc

thank you sistaz...
you gals are the best!
and we had the indispensible
blissful strawberry cake

and these photos are all so not fb
or anywhere else worthy
so they are here
haha

hearts

to: daf jul ls ph

thanks for all the clothes
i love them!!
obviously...since i picked them
haha
love you old pals!

thank you esp to daf and ls
you gave me the blissful cake too
i have so much bliss

hearts

to: lala

thank you lala!
you're sweeter than the card (:



we're the girls with endless hair
(and i am shooting bird again!)
haha

hearts

i found this photo of jjj and i thought
this is what jjj is like.
random, child like, colourful
and happy in her own way (:

was thinking...

what has time done to us
and what have people we loved done to us

time is a pick-pocket
it steals from you bit by bit
and you do not realise something is missing
until you look for it
or until you see that slit across your pocket
then you try and recall
but you can never know exactly
when it was taken away

people who left are burglars
they come at night and vacate
everything in your home
when you wake up the next morning
you are left with the empty shell of the house
and memories of what used to be in there
then you start to wonder if you could
have better prevented the burglary
and you start hating yourself
for not doing enough maybe
and you wonder how things can be there one day
and gone the next. all gone.
to where? you wonder.

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and then you do not listen to some
songs ever again

songs that tell your story
songs that were once shared
songs that were played in that home

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and joey says
but then people who get married
can still get divorced
i am this skeptical

and xq says
and finally they die

and this is what we have become

hey you

stay real designer
can't believe i paid $80 for this thing
i now feel looks best as pyjamas...

but you are forgiven
forgiven for everything including not
knowing you have to add +65

i am just as happy wearing them as pyjamas
you are good designer!

bye bye shoes

i love my massimo snake skin peeptoes.
i love it!
i bought it at a defective sale
the retail value was low
but it doesn't matter how others rate it
because it was love at first sight.
it is gem to me
everything i ever wanted in a pair of heels,
i thought, only that i am a 7 and it is a 6.

so i wore it.
i felt happy wearing it.
my friends think they are hot and they
think it looks damn good on me.
i love it, it makes me happy.
although it hurts me, always.

it got painful sometimes,
so i take a break from it sometimes
then i thought of expanding it, and i added
cushions, and i placed plasters on my feet
then one day i realised that a 6 is a 6
you cant change it
and 6 shoes will keep hurting 7 feet
but i still love it...

so i kept wearing it and it kept hurting me
and one day, it cut my skin
it was a deep cut and there was blood

and i started to wonder, if i will
be more comfortable bare footed

or maybe, what i need is a pair of
nice nappa loafers, in size 7
shoes that will take me anywhere and walk
with me on this long journey called life
shoes that are gentle on my feet and
can withstand the test of time

6 shoes should not hurt 7 feet
and 7 feet should not destroy 6 shoes

so tomorrow, i am going to give
my massimo to amanda.

not because i dont love it anymore
but i simply cant move forward in it
i guess it will be hard at the start
but i guess after some time, i can be
happy to see it fitting nicely on amanda
it was once my beloved companion afterall

6 shoes should belong to 6 feet.
7 feet should look for 7 shoes

lesson: some things we love may not be good for us.

the end.

some people never fail to make me smile
the kind of smile that comes right from the heart
that makes me feel silly for being unhappy
it's really comforting to know that there are
things that never change. ever.

songs that we never get tired of
notes that make us raise our arms with palms outstretched
lyrics that bring us through the past in a heartbeat
faces that makes us smile, or laugh

how comforting to know that they do not change

on a seperate note,

dear friends
friends who give me flowers
friends who make a point to check on me
friends who tell me i have them and they love me
friends who watch me cry silently knowing that they do not have to say anything at all but sit with me

it's great to have you all
i m sorry that i am sometimes so wasted
i have to go missing for a while
i still cant function well at times

but you know i love you too (:

it's another mindless day
i had too much coffee and tea it made me sick

didn't do much except
telling the principal that i am leaving
i have been looking forward to this moment
but it didn't bring me as much satisfaction
as i would like it to

but then
i think it is good to not feel much now

i am guessing tomorrow will be just as wet
because rain-boy will be in town
please please please stay for supper
i need to feel that life is good still

and lastly, why show consideration now
what good does it do?

damn it, now i am affected

november is here...

the christmas decor seems especially
early this year
it is true that festivals can make
some people happy and some people lonely

I have a feeling this year end
will be a cold one.

but we will still have the party with the
indispensable log cake won't we?
knowing that makes me feel better (:

lately i hate mornings and weekend evenings
the times of the day when the sky changes colour
it's best that i don't notice it

but i like hearing from a dear friend
i love reading long long sms-es
because it tells me that he is well enough (: