When you think of me and feel sad, try to imagine this...

One day God came to you and asked you to make a choice between him taking my life away or him taking me away from you.
Which will you choose?
the latter...I am sure.

At least you can still say goodnight to me, at least you still hear my voice, and at least I can still embrace you tight when you need warmth.

Of course, God knew you would be heartbroken, and so he gave you one more choice. To let him help you erase all your memories of us or to continue to remember.
Which will you choose then?
the latter again...(I hope)

At least you remember how you were once deeply loved and in love, at least you know someone out there still treasures you so although she chose not to stay by your side, and at least you know there is someone there who will always be willing to embrace you when you need warmth.

So, my dearest, why should we continue to tear at night and hold back tears in the day when God had actually granted us the better of both choices.

It's very difficult, for me too. To learn to be alone, to learn to take care of myself, and to learn not to take things for granted. To learn how to be confident again, to learn to cope with insecurity, and to learn to take the future in my own hands.

I know, it may be much more difficult for you.

But, we'll learn how... ... eventually...

Meanwhile, remember that I will always be praying for you.


(20 june 05, monday)