I don't really know what to write here anymore, or maybe, how best to express myself.
I am getting protective about how I feel and what is going on.

I really just do not know what to say and how to say. at all.
And i also do not feel like saying anything.
I cant even think of what to say in a message to my idol.

if only i can compose poems like dd
if only i can come up with msn nics as fast as corny and as expressive as gz
hahahahaha

feels extremely yucky to be sick.
the next wave will be my cramps, in a few days' time.
and this legendary term called "long holiday" never existed here since 2 years ago.

Happy Vesak Day!

二零零五年 五月 五日

如果你家养了多年的小狗得了重病
兽医说 :"没救了, 不如替它打针, 结束生命, 减轻痛苦吧!"
那你会怎么办?

看着狗狗 一天比一天 辛苦
自私的留住它 也不能改变些什么
虽然明明觉得 让它解脱应该比较好吧
但就是舍不得

那该怎么办?
内疚着没把它照顾好
内疚着拖延着它的辛苦

那该怎么办勒?
不打针... 还打算让它辛苦多久啊?
但不打针...至少还能有希望啊...

怎么样
打
还是不打...?
可怜的狗狗

五月 五日 二零零五
五点 五十五分
我爱五月天!
虽然五月天 实在太热了!

底下的时间 很明显的 是作假的
因为大家都知道我今天有上班
大家也都知道我公司没有 internet
哈哈

五月五日快乐喽!