I had to wear a pair of waister capris to work yesterday *embarrassed.ashamed*...and when I say "waister", i mean, it was covering my belly button...........

yaya, go ahead. you have my permission to laugh.

sigh...and y did the sn have to face the world in her waister yesterday??? because I ran out of skirts and because i could not fit into any other pair of working pants!!!!!! so it was either "waister" or "stay at home"...so it was ------ WAISTER *wu nai*

oh and why couldn't i fit into the other pants?? because I am sooooo bloated now, with what i don't know...because it is going to be the time of the month again and because it's accumulated bloatedness because it came in droplets last month! hen lei...how not to have PMS when you become fat for nothing? you tell me!

and last week i had to see a chinese doctor to ensure it comes significantly on the next arrival. It dosen make any sense at all!!!! I dread its arrival,yet I now have to take this murky powdery bitter drink 3 times a day for a week so it can come significantly...*very wu nai*

it also happened once last year...came in droplets for like 2 months and during those months I had to squeeze my big tummy, big butt and big B into my clothes!

and people around had to make it worse with their passing remarks like....i was only making myself some milo and this coll went "ohhhh...no wonder u gained weight la..." huh?!?! i mean....i was only innocently making myself half a cup of milo to stay awake ley?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

and then some will go

Coll: wah...yr qi se looks good these days hor

Me: *forced smile and acting non-chalent* oh...u trying to say i gain weight is it" (clench my fists)

Coll: *awkward smile*...oh! no la...u look better lydat mah.....

HELLO~~!! your smile had given you away, auntie! I m sure you were keeping your toes crossed, and since you think so, I will pray that you grow fat so you can "look better"!!

sigh sigh sigh....forcing a sn to the wall....you see you see...you don't even need hormonal changes to have PMS! u just need a handful of insentitive, irritating, love to make talk colls!

and you don't expect me to tell them "oh, no la, you see, I am not fat, just bloated, u know, bloated (NOT FAT!!!!!!) because my menstral cycle is not so smooth recently". You never know, they may just go telling that joey is in some state of denial of her fatness in their next round of making talk with some other colls ABCD.

sigh...sigh.....sigh.....sigh.....

my most beloved auntie, we are relatives after all, ni you he bi ne? I am doing my part, so just hope you do yours too.