hang on to your dream

its another sunday at work again...and i really still cant reconcile with this working on weekend fact...even tho it has been more than a year le.

today run 4 places because many xiao (nan) ren has been complaining to bosses that they have not been seeing us frequent and long enough at their stores! and all the taxi rides really make me want to vomit! ah!! y taxis in spore cannot all change to auto gear and y must they all put lemon scented air refresheners! yucks!

so to make some people happy today, i stayed (read: left my bag at a discrete place in their office) for a record breaking of almost one hour or more per store . and result is, I bought myself a pair of shoes, a tee and a pair of jeans!! wahaha..yes, you did not read me wrongly...i actually can get myself 3 pcs of stuff from top to toe...on a day at work. tai zao nie le!! not my fault. i was forced to "market survey", you dun expect me to hang around in my department for 1 hr rite, my area of control seriously not that big and seriously dun have so many issues to discuss and hand down! xiao!

ok, tt's about today, sunday evening was not that gloomy for once, maybe becos buying things can really make one high..lol...

move on to next matter...one close fren has taken one major step towards her dream, officially stepping out tomorrow. despite my reluctance to be cliche, still wana wish her all the best and tell her to be brave and I am (we are) sure she can do it! gambate!!!

and to the other close fren waiting for her big step: I am praying for you!!

i wana go learn singing soon.....

some people just not born to do sports

Just in case some people are thinking: “hey, this psn! Hasn’t been updating her blog, her san fen zhong re du de bad habit never changes is it, guo ran shi ge sn!” You are wrong! The past week or so, either I have been too sleepy, too caught up with online games, losing too much blood, or too sick to blog!

And last week I went to sign up for kickboxing *again and finally* cos I decided I really have to do something about my fatness other than lamenting about it! And this is how mad a kickboxing session can turn out! To start off, there were 50 people in the class and we were kicking and boxing into each other, what overwhelming response on a tue evening at an outskirt location! So many people desperate to shou huh! Madness!

So I happily gear myself in my puma singlet and puma wristband looking and feeling very sporty (hoping my flabby arms dun give me away...wahaha), and for the first half hour, I was still feeling very good about being able to catch up with all the moves and sweating a lot..haha…flashing past my mind was a string of: wo shou le wo shou le….wahaha! and out of the blue got overwhelming urge to lau sai and vomit! Out of the blue I wana stress! And I had to barge my way thru at least 20 kicking and boxing vigorously students to the toilet to lau sai! Madness!

The next half an hour of the class was spent between deciding if I wana lausai more or vomit more, and trying to catch up with some moves to make my money worthwhile and make sure I dun vomit or lausai while kickboxing..wahaha. Madness.

Back to pasir ris mrt, I vomit at the toilet and back home, I was so giddy and nauseous, fell in and out of sleep in the toilet! Cos too giddy to even get up and have to standby beside toilet bowl cos too nauseous le, and at 10pm, I was having a high fever! Madness!

The next day, I was dragged to the doctor for an injection and overall cost my mum $43!!! AHHH!! Madness!! And doc told me I was infected stomach flu by some passer-by!!

Maybe it’s just my fat body trying to protest against exercise… but tt is v insensible of her! not like I want to, but no sn wants to remain a fatty her whole life ah!!!

Anyway, I will continue to kickbox! Yea!

CC: daidi

There are just so many things I want to do, yet so little time I have. And I wonder why my friend’s bro has so much time and youth on hand, yet only have one goal in life – to get a girlfriend! Boy, maybe you should just get a life first! If you want people to love you, can you at least provide them with something lovable about yourself?!

There are just so many things I want to do…do better at my work by seeing more, reading more and doing more, give my students better grades, take more tuition to earn more money, learn singing, exercise to lose weight, spend more time with many people, tidy up the many boxes in my room, watch more tv, record more songs into my md, sing more ktv, sleep more, blog more, go overseas more (if i have the money)…and many many more la..haha

Problem now is, I am just too tired after work to do anything much. On my way to work or back home, I am either sound asleep on the train or if I am awake, the only thing on my mind is to snatch for a seat..wahaha. working life hbht tiring le!!

Life is short, I have realized, and youth is even shorter!! I am going 23 and there are still so many dreams out there that I may have to let go of forever. If time is reversible, there will be many things that I will do, or do better. For now, all I can do is to make sure I won’t have to say the above again when I m 70 years old.

From now, I must be happier. I must be braver, and I must live my life fuller (i won't dare say to the fullest)
I don’t want to have regrets. I will try.


waiting for you, I'm waiting for you...
waiting for you kiss me in the night....
为何你 cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念

waiting for you, I'm waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你 不断旋转 一直到黑发变成了银线

Waiting for you, waiting for you
直到永远....